It was the night before our first farmers’ market and I couldn’t sleep. I laid there in bed, Random Kitty tucked into my armpit. His snores taunting me as my mind refused to stop its restless prattle and get a good night’s sleep.
What if we don’t sell any coffee?
What if we sell it all?
What if people don’t like it?
Do we have everything?
Did I pack the kettles?
The questions weren’t meant to be answered but to keep my heart rate up, stomach in knots and sleep in the far distance. That’s when I shifted gears and started asking the important questions in a game I like to call, Where Are They Now According to Weegee.
Is Ferris Bueller married to Sloan?
Do they have kids?
Did they marry and get a divorce?
Is he a stay at home computer programmer?
Do his kids ditch school?
Is Cameron Frye a multi-millionaire? Or a recluse with a cold?
I ask myself random questions regarding how life has turned out for lead characters in popular 80s & 90s movies. In this case, it was Ferris Bueller’s Day Off I pondered in the dark.
“Are you sleeping?” My husband asked. I got the feeling he was suffering from the same next day performance jitters I was just going through.
“Not yet,” I responded. “But I soon will be. I just need to figure out if Ferris Bueller is a computer programmer or a principal in current time.”
Turns out, my husband and I, by shifting our ruminating thoughts from what can’t be figureoutable to things we can make up or envision, our minds grow tired. It wasn’t long before both of us were out for the night and snoring with the cat.
One of the things to remember is that we control our thoughts. We have the ability to redirect them or change them. We can dwell in anxiety or change the pattern.